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Alix & the Archangels

Ride the Fear

Angels, I am afraid.

I sit with the fear and I see.

This is me, breaking free.

This is me, like the baby plant pushing against the surface of the soil, straining to break free.

This is me, breaking free from a relationship that tied me down, broke my heart, shouldered me with responsibilities I only thought were mine.

This is me, breaking out of a passionless relationship, where I felt more like servant or housekeeper than beloved chosen one.

This is me, breaking free of the chains of my first family, of those who never thought that wealth could be theirs, who thought that what you wanted could only be purchased on credit cards, whose enjoyment of life was limited by their bank account and by their belief in how much money could come to them.

This is me, breaking free of my own terror, trying to believe that I can carry myself and still be safe. For I know that the angels and the heavens are always there, but I am human, and it’s my responsibility to let the heavens in. It’s up to me to believe I can be supported. It’s up to me to create my own safety net, cobbled together out of necessity and trust, while I dance on the high lines and desperately hope that it will catch me if I fall.

If I fall.

We all want someone there to catch us, to rescue us, to fill in the gaps between our performance and our needs. The trick is to balance that with our own empowerment, because when we trade our power for our security it serves no one.

I’m learning so much about fear as I live this new life of mine: single after more than thirty-five years of serial partnership, self-employed after more than thirty years of claiming a bi-weekly paycheck.

The angels say, “Ride the fear.”

Part of me knows I can. Part of me still wants to know how I’m going to pay my taxes.

About Alix

Hi! I’m Alix. I'm an intuitive life coach, energy healer,  and channel for the wisdom and healing of the archangels. I help my clients get the answers they need.

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